Good Mornin', Mournin' Papa. Even the sun mourns you. But I bet the coffee is better where you are. Pt. 1 The two of us in a truck, in a classic car, in my car when you got too tired to drive. You always let me be me, and I let you be yourself, brave and battered, an alchemist, a survivor. The dirt roads rolled out before us, we drove them with the windows down, Crimson and Clover crackling through old speakers, dust billowing in, and the west Texas skies turned to stare at us with rain in its eyes. Pt.2 I love that dragon fruit became your favorite fruit before you left this planet. I never left. I'm still walking back and forth between the checkered kitchen floor and the blue carpet in your room. Bringing your meds and those cookies you like. I'm going through the channels, looking for a Columbo episode, or something with antiques or old cars. Pt.3 I thought I'd gone with you the night you left. Remember?? We both flew past the pain and leapt with joy
I'm so happy I catalogued each of your looks as they progressed. I have rested my head in my palm for half hours, just documenting each eyelash, the plump of your cheeks, the sweet slice of chubbiness under your chin. I've told you how much I love your teeth, and studied strands of hair. I know the exact brown of your eyes, every little amber fleck, and I love as they grow lighter as you laugh, and dark chocolate when you get frustrated. how the light in the room looks for you. and the look in your eye when you're about to jump and make my heart drop out of my own chest. but it's always too late when I say no. and you always land. all of this is called love. and I want to say thank you for letting me be your auntie. Love, nano